It was late September when I had my 20-week wife visit. The weather was so good; I was feeling happy. Being halfway through my pregnancy made this day so special.
This day was so special because I was halfway through my pregnancy. After losing three babies previously, we chose to do a DNA test at 8 weeks and discovered we were expecting a girl.
We called her Noa, and she integrated into our everyday existence. All five big sisters were happy, especially three who loved my belly, singing to Noe and imagining their life with her.
Noa is an uncommon name for girls in this area, yet we enjoy selecting unique Biblical names that carry significant meanings. Noe mean movement or motion, but I was not sure what was meant for her may be she will be dancer or leader one day.
At my doctors visit the midwife tired to find Noe’s heartbeat but even after a while she did not get it. Which signs that there is a problem. I was nervous for a while; I was sure everything was okay, but the midwife requested an ultrasound just to confirm; my partner came with me, and the physician stated my uterus appeared small and vacant.
My heart sank, but it became clear that my full bladder was shifting things aside. The doctor said Noe had no heartbeat, no movement. I was shocked and then the doctor said Noe had passed away. My whole body was shaking after I heard that.
We found a doctor two hours away who could help with induction. One day Noe was born, and I thought I would keep her tiny body safe and take some pictures even in water so she could look more natural. A photographer friend consented to assist, even on her birthday.
After a long time, finally, I had no idea at first glance she was looking different but when I put her body in water, she was looking more natural and beautiful in it. I dedicated hours to imprinting her face in my memory, and the images turned into a cherished treasure. They reveal the beauty of unborn children and provide comfort to mourning mothers.
Noe story is about love and healing. I shared this story to encourage other moms who might be going through hard times.
