After Britt gave birth, five years ago, she experienced unusual emotions. It was her first time embracing motherhood, so she did not know what she should expect, and although it was one of the most beautiful journeys of her life, what was awakened inside her was painful. At first, the emotions she felt were associated with postpartum depression by everyone around, and gradually she acknowledged that too, until the realization that it was her body protecting her hit her.
Britt’s past was dark because of the sexual assault she had to go through in childhood. It had left a permanent imprint on her life and how she processed things, and was one of the most painful truths that she thought had been buried for a long time now. The suppressed trauma had returned after decades, and this time, it was worse and affected her adversely.
When the incident happened, Britt chose silence over speaking for herself despite knowing who her perpetrator was. The confusion she had as a child and the fear of going through more are what made her choose silence. Britt’s childhood memories are blurred, and whenever she recalls being a child, nothing could make her happy, as it was all about survival. The happy memories seemed locked away, and the key was long lost, too; however, when Britt gave birth and welcomed her second daughter, they seemed to return.
The amalgam of her happiness was welcoming a little angel. The therapy session she had been taking for a while, along with spiritual guidance, made this possible. It was also a result of how she finally put into words how she felt and went through all these years, which was finally being put into words rather than suppressed. The idea of self-harm and ending her life started popping into her head when, after the truth was revealed and surfaced, she fell into depression again. The only reason she had to keep going was the two angels, her daughters, who kept her going and were a glimmer of hope in her life.
Although people often tend to run away from therapy, it was Britt’s best decision, as this had given her a golden chance to speak out about all that she had been struggling with and feeling for years now. She also kicked off her spiritual journey. Who can defeat a person bound so closely to God and his principles?
If Britt’s childhood had to be put in a few simple words, she was the quiet child, or, to be fair, the one who was always silenced because of emotional manipulation and fears of further abuse that surrounded her. Her healing journey was different, as rather than getting validation from outside, she had to choose for herself and decide to live. Rather than living a life of freedom, she opted for boundaries, which healed her.
She believed her intuition, love for God, and faith were the keys behind what kept her going. Britt also took a few significant steps in life, from letting go of the toxic corporate job she had been doing to penning down her feelings and becoming a published author. Britt wanted to advocate for those silenced so that no one had to go through her life.
She aims to be a reminder of strength and encouragement for the beautiful mothers. Her blog, Hellogorgeousmama, too, is thriving, and this is what she deserved all this time! The fact that she chose the word of a survivor rather than a victim demonstrated her powerful personality.
